Nature of nurture or both ? Many gender confused people always questioning themeselves this! My opinion is that both played an part of who i am now! The earliest example of me was the sheer interest in my mom's her pantyhoses! If i think about why or how i developed an interest for it i can't recal , for me it was there, as if it was the most common thing you can think of , like tying your shoe laces!
One day i was playing cards with my brother on his bed, after a while my brother noticed i had pantyhose on my legs under my pjama trousers! My brother asked me why i had them on as he also mentioned that only woman use to wear such! Not wanting to hear my brother i walked to my own bedroom and locked the bedroom door! After a while my mom knocked on my door and as i opened the door she walked in and sat down on my bed! Carlo she said these pantyhose are for girls and woman to wear under a dress! Not for boys like you! I said but mom if that is true i want to be a girl!
At school boys from my class never asked me to play football with them! No instead they always treated me like a girl. Reason was that i was just as small and i weight the same as de rest of the girls in my class! I remember it bothered me alott. And after a couple of years i more or less couldn't care anymore! i played alott with girls from school.
In my family i did not have alott of nephew's , almost al my uncle's and aunt's had one or two daughters that where my niches! Because my aunt regurlarly asked if i could babysit my niche ! i often was there in the weekends and stayed to sleep over! My niche then always would ask me if we would play if we where mother and daugter from each other, whenever we did my niche always gave me a dress , high heels and pantyhose to wear! As i remember i always felt great!
As years go by i went to sixt grade , the last class before high school! As everyone reached an age of 11 or 12 they began to change , their bodies began to develope as this is normal for puberty. Akward but true i didn't change into developing myself! No instead i stayed the same as i was ( 1,55 mtr lenght and 40 kilogram weight) and where al the boys from my class had created this dark voice sounds i still sounded like any other girl did
You can imagine i really thought i was or had to be a girl! Allthough i regularly made my parents notice me doing girlish things , for example falling asleep with earrings of my niches in my ear on vacation till having a pair of boots with heels in my room ( bought them on a second hand market) they did not asked me what my problem could be! No instead they would say or make clear that people that did crossdressing where sick in the head!
When i was young the internet did not exist for an 20 years, so there was not alott of info about it! Sexual education at school did not reach futher then the usual! As the boys from my class would get more interested in the girls of the class i somehow made a friend i would go and play with. After a while i understand why this was the case! The girls didn't care to play with the boys and i was the closest resemblance to a girl! As the mom of my friend went to the groceries store , my friend walked to the bedroom of his sister and after a while came back with a little dress , mary janes , a brunette wig and said i had to put this on my body
As i was used to dress up i went to the bathroom to do so! After an 10 minutes i managed to put on all the attire he gave me! As i opened his door again i noticed several other kids from my class who probably came in the house while i dressed myself! What is the meaning of this my friend explained to me! We are very horny boys and want to sort of feel what it felt like to be in bed with a girl ( Me dressed up ) and cuddle up againt my bum! They would imagine me beeing a girl they where in love with and while they did there cocks would grow rinding against my bum!
So from that time on every week i had to dress myself so they could get all horny again! And if it was an normal feel to me i did not doubt myself on doing so! i convinced myself ths was how it should be! That weeekend one of my nephew's came to have an sleeppver at my parents place! And as we had to go and sleep from my father and mother we talked to eachother about school! My nephew also had a girl he loved at school, what girl at school you liked he asked? I said i didn't! why he asked, i said that i sometimes would play the girl for boys in my class ! Really he said , yep i answered! okay may i come lay next to you he said? Yes why not, so i made room for him and instatly i felt his hard little dick getting big! Would you mind if i massaged to little bum hole! No i don't mind i am used to it! While he humped his dick againt my pjama he slowly put out my pjama and felt my nipples, as they where getting hard, my hand slowly reached his cock , with my hand i directed his cock too my pussyass, not a long time after that i felt his cock going in and out of me. It made me really feel the girl i had too be. Soft i began too moan everytime his big hard cock went inside me. Where the boys from my class only massaged my crack my nephew knew how it worked, this was litterally the first time i got fucked, and i felt as i thought it would, gratually he began too fuck me harder, and automatically i began too moan harder, just like real girl moan when they got fucked. I realised it didn't matter anymore if it was nature or nurture. I knew allthough born boy i just had too be a tgurl
